30 Jan, 2026

Things have been rather interesting for ne since I came back to SA.  Not only have I been reunited with Lil, I've also found myself getting close to another girl.  Weird, I never thought I'd open up again after Roanapur  but here we are.  

We also started up that old idea we had years ago, The Roses we call ourselves.  And this time no one will get hurt when we're around.  I'll make sure of that.  But anyway...  The badges have already been getting on my nerves lately.  Hodge... Detective Hodge is the biggest pain I've seen in a while.   Man has been terse and a jackass everytime we meet.  Well, make sure to pay him back at some point.  But to today.

We had a rave today.  It was pretty good too, till that pain in the ass detective  came along to ruin it.  Selling Liquer to a fucking minor he said.  What the actual fuck.  Jesus Christ this pisses me off. All we did was take over a damned tunnel and put on a god damned charity event for battered women.  You'd think we kicked their favorite puppy or something.   Well fuck them.  Not only that, they freaked out Lucy too.  Dumbass motherfuckers.   At least that female trooper was nice enough to not be a shithead. 

Whatever... what's done is done.  Hopefully I've tired myself out enought to actually get a decent nights rest for once.  The nightmares have been pretty shitty lately and I haven't gotten more than an hour of sleep in three days.  Well, is what it is.  Let's just pray sleeping by two cutie girls will make me feel better.

2 Feb, 2026

Where do I begin... Oh fuck... what did I say?!  Did I just really say that.  Did I just open myself up to that again?  What is wrong with me?  I know I shouldn't say that.  I know I can't do that.  I can't let people in.  I shouldn't...  FUCK!!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!!  Oh, hell... the beginning, I need to start at the beginning.

Our date was today.  Lil, Lucy, and I went out to the cemetary for our date.  We've been planning this for a while, and I do like Lucy, so it was really fun.  We hiked up to the sitting area on top of the hill and then went to play a little game in the graveyard with the Oiji board.  Now, Im not a fan and Miko would probably kill me if she learned I was messing around with that shit, but it's whatever.  But weird shit did happen.  I heard some whispering and when the badges, yes the damned badges showed up as always, so did they.  Weird, I never seem to have problems while Im out there.  But anyway we had fun there and then drove over to the Suburban nearby since Lucy seems to enjoy being called our good little kitten.  Yeah, I know right?  Who knew we could find such a cute girl to catch.  But I digress.  We went to the suburban to buy a new pair of cat ears for her, which she seems to enjoy.  And after that we went home. 

But she said soemthing to me...  a simple phrase.  I love you.   She said I love you...  and I said it back.  What the fuck have I done.  I said I'd never let anyone in like that.  Not again.  Not after Ken and Himiko.   I mean she's cute... and I really love it when she acts all bratty like she does...  Oh god, what the fuck am I doing?

6 Feb, 2026

Not Again. Not fucking again.

Lucy's hurt.  Stabbed.   Some fucking creep stabbed her.  I don't know what to do but, I don't know, I just don't know.  One minute fine, next,  she's on the floor bleeding.  I called the badges. I don't know why, but I couldn't think of anything else to do.  She's fine.  She's in bed resting now but Im gonna get this son of bitch.  Lilith's with me.  We both agree that bastard has to go down.  They are gonna fucking die. 

The rest of the night was fine.  We had our monthly meeting and brought in new roses.  Lilith seemed happy with them.  Im still not sure about Alicia though.  She's family to a badge.  Detective hodge of all people.  Anyay after that she apparently got in an accident.  We visited her and saw the bastard.  Oh, I slashed his tires.  We'll see where things go, but it was fun.

9 Feb, 2026

Well, today was pretty good all things considered.  Lili, lucy and I went with the girls to a funeral for Mike Miller.  Apparently he was the Lost MC's Prez.    The service was nice I guess.  As much as a funeral can anyway.  After that we chilled out till we were invited to see our former neighbors new house.  Oh, we have a cat now.  So that's a thing.  I look forward to it, but it gives me the impression that we're in for a handful. Hm... what do we call our new kitten.  Lucy?  Maybe.  Oh, how about Loki?  I think that's nice.  We should call the cat Loki.  I'll ask Lili what she thinks.

12 Feb, 2026

I could kill someone.

Today started out as normal as any other.  We have been planning the beach party for a couple weeks now.  Lili decided that having it out on the beach would save us the hassel of the badges causing more problems for us.  So, I followed Lili out on my bike and met her along with most of the girls.  As usual, i watched for anything threatening, but luckily I was fine for the majority of it.  Saddly though, like clockwork the weather decided to rain, so we moved the party under the pier.  We had a sizable turnout too.  Most of the club showed up along with several others who had heard about it.  Everyone seemed to have fun.  

But, as usual, towards the end of the night the badges decided to make an annoying appearance.  Luckily I don't think they could find us with anything to charge us over so they seemingly just lingered around.  That was until the end of the party though.  Of course they were laying in wait for us.  I fucking swear they got like half of us for Bullshit reasons as soon as we left.  Seems like we've managed to piss them off for some fucking reason.  Anyway, wasn't bad at all.  Phaedra even donated $300,000 to the cause.  But once we got home, my night went to shit.

Aminah needs to go.  Once we got home, and after Lili dropped off one of our members, Astrid and her shitty ward showed up.  Apparently the brat thinks we were "Triggering" her or some shit.  Grow the fuck up kid.  I know we all got problems, and trust me, I have mine.  But for the love of all fucking things holy, shut your fucking mouth.  That dumbass kid came out swinging and telling Astrid, a grown woman, what she can and cannot do.  I swear that Aminah needs an attitude adjustment.  She had the god damn nerve to treat her foster mom like a fucking toy she could manipulate.  I know the type too fucking well.  

I gotta give it to Lili though.  She was much calmer in that situation than I was.  I defer to her judgement but the next time I see what she did from her Im going to teach her a lesson, a hard one at that.  Well, after we talked about something.  Side note, the kid seems more than willing to hurt or kill someone.  I guess they were abbusive, but she apparently has never heard of "Behind closed doors."  Anyway, Lili managed to get Astrid to talk in away from the brat.  I stood outside with the kid though.  I can get the info from Lili later, but I wasn't gonna let that kid near her; even if I had to break the kid's arm.  She even tried to push past me and get in the house after only a few minutes.  It's fucking clear the kid has a screw loose.  I blocked till they left.  But I will be damned sure they learn that lesson if necessary.  Well, hope astrid sends the kid back.  She's  a lovely girl and I don't want to see her in a bad spot.